Dont even have time for myself. Have not been Topping up my phone, for quiet some time also. Because Duit Ppaid tk jalan2. stakat msg si minah gendut aka Meera every morning for her whereabouts. and msg dat hafiz. tap reply die kene wait long2. kadang2 tk reply langsung! hahah! yea i noe, eu busy.

Last Sunday.

i tot of continueing doing my Bio notes. But atlast i jus gave up, and follow my families to the east cost. haha. gereks per! My mum bought mee hoon goreng, chicken nuggets and fries. our purpose to go there was jus to do cycling. But in the end, only me, my adek lelaki and my younger sister rent a bike. actually everybody insisted on jus sitting by the beach first.But my main purpose is cycling. so i ask my dad to rent me the bikes first. and he did.
After that, i jus wentcycle all around Jus by myself. And mate goes right and left. Cuci mate skalik. hahah! BUt this BANGLA, jus make my mood change sia!

he jus had his bath at the beach, and guess wat his wearing? its jus a sluar dlm which is like calvie klien punye. those thight one, that can see the huhuhaha! i was like, Wat The FCUK! he was holding his baju with him, da tau tk reti nk cover. ergh! No shame btol!

and lagy satu this minah indon,in the toilet. when eu doing ur business eu lock ur cubile right? But this minah indon, Langsung tk! i went to the toilet. so when i saw the door is not lock, i just push the door. BUT when i pushed, this minah indon was standing up half naked at the bottom part. i quickly said sorry, and close the door.

a Bad Day! But Had a lot of fun at Washing Eyes! hahah!

weekdays are jus skool days. Boring for me to update.

My blog is realy realy dead right now.
have not been having any free time to do with blogging.

My time table is so Fcuking sucks!
Monday - 8 am - 6pm.
Tuesday- 8am - 5pm
Wednesday- 8am - 5.30pm
Thursday- 8am - 5 pm.
Friday- 8am-3pm.

Tiring kan! its like i dont have a life of my own. spend almost my time in school!
But Thank God! This is my last year.
next year straight away to work! yes!
I dont want to go POlY! im tired of studying.
my families wants me to poly. but i dont have any confidence in getting into poly.
And when im work, indipendant la aku!
thought of taking motor license!! my dad allow it, But no sponsor from him.
But car totally sponsored by him.
huahua!
For me bike is the easiest transport for a sinlge women like me when i start working.. (:
Ive noticed this Guy since last year. have been taking trains the same time as him and same cubicle as him. His very cute! But his younger then me by 1 year. From Queenstown secondary. But look older.
noticed him since last year. But never even look into him totally before. But since i have been seeing him almost everyday in the train, might as i well i smiled to him rite. Rather then jus putting that irritating face of mine. which i always do when im alone.
i ask shafiqa how to smile to a guy. Because, ive noticed her its like an easy thing for her to smile to a guy who she hardly knew. she can jus smile to any cute guy who walks pass her, but not those matss. and she always get a smile back in return.
and she say, when eu noticed that person is looking at you, i need to stare to him back, and look at his eyes and smile.
And for me that is already hard enough! im really shy towards a guy okae!

And so today morning! Take the train as usual, and hoping that he will take the same train as me again today.
he take the tarin at yew tee. he stand on the sides, which i was jus infront of him.
and my thoughts was, mcm ane aku nk senyum ni!!?
i turn right and left, avoiding looking at his face.
but when i notice he was looking at me, i slowly turn my face, but he turn back. and so i jus stare at him, he look at me back, i quickly put a very small smile.
and guess wat!! he small smile back to me again!
hahaha!
aku kat sini da malu gile siot!
but i get down at Chuachukang, waiting for shafiqa, zaimah, wafir, rio and idah. we go to school together.
i look at him again, but when the doors open, i jus went out.
but i knoe he look at me and SMILE!

(:

So lelaki dar skola Queenstown sec, selalu naek train dekat yewtew, at the the last cubicle third door. and always get down at Commonwealth, and using a bag pack! Jus want to say you are jus SOO CUTE!! huahua!
i jus cant believe dat i start the first move by smiling like dat.
Malu siot!
(:


Im tired, Im sick, and im cold right now. i jus want you right here right now. i want you by my side right now. i want to see your face right now. i want to hug you right now. im missing you like hell right noow.
yourface. your hair. your eyes. your nose. and your voice. i jus missed that. you never msg you never call for so long already. I know, you dont even intend to topup. but come on lar, eu need a phone to contact people when you are outside. haiss..
seriously i missed you like hell. even my sis says, im jus wasting my time. and even my friends says so. but i jus cant forget you. i cant concentrate doing my bio notes. i cant concentrate on my studies. i cant concentrate doing aniting. i need your accompanion right now.
i rarely see you online right now. i dont know whether eu r actually online but appearing offline so that i wont disturb you. you jus want to get rid of me right? you want me to forget you right? you want me to be away from you right? please lar, dont jus go silence. dont jus come and go. i hate that. i dont understand myself. when other people come and go, i can easily forget him. but you. you are jus so hard for me to forget.
my guys friends come to me for advice about gerls. because the gerls they like are my gerl friends. i help them, but now im not even helping myself.
people see me in a happy mode whether in school or outside. but deep inside, ive always think about you. you are like the light for me to see the front. without the light i wont go aniwhere, but jus stood still and waiting. ive stop mingling because of you.
seriously, i really cant forget you. be myside and be with me will you. im jus typing wat i feel. because i cant do my work without telling.

Hey, someone in the bus Found my phone. so will be getting it tmr. so number will be the same i think.


I Lost MY handPHONE!
actually i accidentally left it in the bus!

and now i cant get through my phone.
when i called a malay guy pick it up, den put it down back.
wth!

so for now plz don contactt me. and please pass Your num to me at frenster or aniwhere.
i lost all my numbers!


ARGH!
I JUS HATE MY LIFE NOW!

seriously!
too many things in my head right now.
first my Frinch.
Second my STUDIES.
Third this fcking guy ive been thinking!

My sis cut my Frinch for me.
and now its like Fcuking SHORT!
and i hate it.
Thank god its not that short.

STUDIES!!
School just started few days ago.
and get to know, my Phase test is like NEXT WEEK!
Dah lah aku blaja slow.
and now how!!!2nd year is like really hard for me!
argh, jus because of studies im breaking down!
How am i suppose to cope like this!

FCKING GUY!
This Fcuking guy making it more worse!
Tungu kan die da mcm tungu Bulan nk jatoh.
i now its only 6 months.
BUT still argh!
WTF!
Seriously WASTING time siak kau NAZREEN!
Dah die tknk layan.
Buat ape lagy kau nak layan die!?
LETS JUST STOP IT OKAE!
The conversation that i had with zaimah today in the train, making me realise that.
DOnt Jus Say, JUs DO IT!
Forget HIM! Dont Think Of HIM! GET RID if HIM from ur mind!

MOVE ON SUA!